Monday, September 25, 2006

oh my goodness I haven't cried so much for so long :( Haven't touched One Litre of Tears today, but still, I cried after listening to the OST =.=

anyways. moving to livejournal now (temp or permanantly, not sure yet). I need livejournal now haha given all the erms.. contacts (!) there. so http://papercow.livejournal.com. (don't ask the username =.=) layout in shambles, but no matter. shall not care until the eoys are over, or more like if i survive the eoys. or unless xiyu-san can create out that layout for me in the meantime :)

so until then, sayonara!

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

7:40 PM

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Wednesday, September 06, 2006

FREAK. i just realized the online progress report was long out. and i just went to see it -_- over a week after its been out. very alert eh don't you think.

anyway. i almost had a heart attack when i saw so many 3s in the report, thought scale ranged from 1 to 10 initially -_- then i realized the highest was 4. completely scared the daylights out of me? i knew i was bad but didn't know i was THAT bad. gahh. and the online report was utterly useless. i mean. i got lots of threes and a fair number of fours, but like that's gonna tell me where i stand? and the comments the teachers gave. LIKE THEY HELP. most don't even comment cause i don't think they even know me. erms. chan commented that i was an "independent learner with good self-discipline". ah. he hasn't seen me when my supposedly studying hours turned snoozing time. the only close to useful comment was surprisingly mien mien's! (not that it was particularly encouraging through). left me wondering what my parents would say if they saw my report.

dunno why i'm like.. even updating this. its so dead. and besides I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING NOW. except for the fact that i fell asleep thrice (twice in the morning, once in the afternoon) today already. HAHA "self-discipline" eh! and my relatives are coming over later today. seems like my revisions' gone up in smoke today. w-w-o-w. i am so dead.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY REVISION. *stressed*

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

4:42 PM

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FREAK. i just realized the online progress report was long out. and i just went to see it -_- over a week after its been out. very alert eh don't you think.

anyway. i almost had a heart attack when i saw so many 3s in the report, thought scale ranged from 1 to 10 initially -_- then i realized the highest was 4. completely scared the daylights out of me? i knew i was bad but didn't know i was THAT bad. gahh. and the online report was utterly useless. i mean. i got lots of threes and a fair number of fours, but like that's gonna tell me where i stand? and the comments the teachers gave. LIKE THEY HELP. most don't even comment cause i don't think they even know me. erms. chan commented that i was an "independent learner with good self-discipline". ah. he hasn't seen me when my supposedly studying hours turned snoozing time. the only close to useful comment was surprisingly mien mien's! (not that it was particularly encouraging through). left me wondering what my parents would say if they saw my report.

dunno why i'm like.. even updating this. its so dead. and besides I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING NOW. except for the fact that i fell asleep thrice (twice in the morning, once in the afternoon) today already. HAHA "self-discipline" eh! and my relatives are coming over later today. seems like my revisions' gone up in smoke today. w-w-o-w. i am so dead.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY REVISION. *stressed*

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

4:29 PM

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FREAK. i just realized the online progress report was long out. and i just went to see it -_- over a week after its been out. very alert eh don't you think.

anyway. i almost had a heart attack when i saw so many 3s in the report, thought scale ranged from 1 to 10 initially -_- then i realized the highest was 4. completely scared the daylights out of me? i knew i was bad but didn't know i was THAT bad. gahh. and the online report was utterly useless. i mean. i got lots of threes and a fair number of fours, but like that's gonna tell me where i stand? and the comments the teachers gave. LIKE THEY HELP. most don't even comment cause i don't think they even know me. erms. chan commented that i was an "independent learner with good self-discipline". ah. he hasn't seen me when my supposedly studying hours turned snoozing time. the only close to useful comment was surprisingly mien mien's! (not that it was particularly encouraging through). left me wondering what my parents would say if they saw my report.

dunno why i'm like.. even updating this. its so dead. and besides I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING NOW. except for the fact that i fell asleep thrice (twice in the morning, once in the afternoon) today already. HAHA "self-discipline" eh! and my relatives are coming over later today. seems like my revisions' gone up in smoke today. w-w-o-w. i am so dead.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY REVISION. *stressed*

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

4:29 PM

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FREAK. i just realized the online progress report was long out. and i just went to see it -_- over a week after its been out. very alert eh don't you think.

anyway. i almost had a heart attack when i saw so many 3s in the report, thought scale ranged from 1 to 10 initially -_- then i realized the highest was 4. completely scared the daylights out of me? i knew i was bad but didn't know i was THAT bad. gahh. and the online report was utterly useless. i mean. i got lots of threes and a fair number of fours, but like that's gonna tell me where i stand? and the comments the teachers gave. LIKE THEY HELP. most don't even comment cause i don't think they even know me. erms. chan commented that i was an "independent learner with good self-discipline". ah. he hasn't seen me when my supposedly studying hours turned snoozing time. the only close to useful comment was surprisingly mien mien's! (not that it was particularly encouraging through). left me wondering what my parents would say if they saw my report.

dunno why i'm like.. even updating this. its so dead. and besides I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING NOW. except for the fact that i fell asleep thrice (twice in the morning, once in the afternoon) today already. HAHA "self-discipline" eh! and my relatives are coming over later today. seems like my revisions' gone up in smoke today. w-w-o-w. i am so dead.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY REVISION. *stressed*

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

4:29 PM

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FREAK. i just realized the online progress report was long out. and i just went to see it -_- over a week after its been out. very alert eh don't you think.

anyway. i almost had a heart attack when i saw so many 3s in the report, thought scale ranged from 1 to 10 initially -_- then i realized the highest was 4. completely scared the daylights out of me? i knew i was bad but didn't know i was THAT bad. gahh. and the online report was utterly useless. i mean. i got lots of threes and a fair number of fours, but like that's gonna tell me where i stand? and the comments the teachers gave. LIKE THEY HELP. most don't even comment cause i don't think they even know me. erms. chan commented that i was an "independent learner with good self-discipline". ah. he hasn't seen me when my supposedly studying hours turned snoozing time. the only close to useful comment was surprisingly mien mien's! (not that it was particularly encouraging through). left me wondering what my parents would say if they saw my report.

dunno why i'm like.. even updating this. its so dead. and besides I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING NOW. except for the fact that i fell asleep thrice (twice in the morning, once in the afternoon) today already. HAHA "self-discipline" eh! and my relatives are coming over later today. seems like my revisions' gone up in smoke today. w-w-o-w. i am so dead.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY REVISION. *stressed*

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

4:29 PM

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FREAK. i just realized the online progress report was long out. and i just went to see it -_- over a week after its been out. very alert eh don't you think.

anyway. i almost had a heart attack when i saw so many 3s in the report, thought scale ranged from 1 to 10 initially -_- then i realized the highest was 4. completely scared the daylights out of me? i knew i was bad but didn't know i was THAT bad. gahh. and the online report was utterly useless. i mean. i got lots of threes and a fair number of fours, but like that's gonna tell me where i stand? and the comments the teachers gave. LIKE THEY HELP. most don't even comment cause i don't think they even know me. erms. chan commented that i was an "independent learner with good self-discipline". ah. he hasn't seen me when my supposedly studying hours turned snoozing time. the only close to useful comment was surprisingly mien mien's! (not that it was particularly encouraging through). left me wondering what my parents would say if they saw my report.

dunno why i'm like.. even updating this. its so dead. and besides I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING NOW. except for the fact that i fell asleep thrice (twice in the morning, once in the afternoon) today already. HAHA "self-discipline" eh! and my relatives are coming over later today. seems like my revisions' gone up in smoke today. w-w-o-w. i am so dead.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY REVISION. *stressed*

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

4:29 PM

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FREAK. i just realized the online progress report was long out. and i just went to see it -_- over a week after its been out. very alert eh don't you think.

anyway. i almost had a heart attack when i saw so many 3s in the report, thought scale ranged from 1 to 10 initially -_- then i realized the highest was 4. completely scared the daylights out of me? i knew i was bad but didn't know i was THAT bad. gahh. and the online report was utterly useless. i mean. i got lots of threes and a fair number of fours, but like that's gonna tell me where i stand? and the comments the teachers gave. LIKE THEY HELP. most don't even comment cause i don't think they even know me. erms. chan commented that i was an "independent learner with good self-discipline". ah. he hasn't seen me when my supposedly studying hours turned snoozing time. the only close to useful comment was surprisingly mien mien's! (not that it was particularly encouraging through). left me wondering what my parents would say if they saw my report.

dunno why i'm like.. even updating this. its so dead. and besides I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING NOW. except for the fact that i fell asleep thrice (twice in the morning, once in the afternoon) today already. HAHA "self-discipline" eh! and my relatives are coming over later today. seems like my revisions' gone up in smoke today. w-w-o-w. i am so dead.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY REVISION. *stressed*

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

4:29 PM

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FREAK. i just realized the online progress report was long out. and i just went to see it -_- over a week after its been out. very alert eh don't you think.

anyway. i almost had a heart attack when i saw so many 3s in the report, thought scale ranged from 1 to 10 initially -_- then i realized the highest was 4. completely scared the daylights out of me? i knew i was bad but didn't know i was THAT bad. gahh. and the online report was utterly useless. i mean. i got lots of threes and a fair number of fours, but like that's gonna tell me where i stand? and the comments the teachers gave. LIKE THEY HELP. most don't even comment cause i don't think they even know me. erms. chan commented that i was an "independent learner with good self-discipline". ah. he hasn't seen me when my supposedly studying hours turned snoozing time. the only close to useful comment was surprisingly mien mien's! (not that it was particularly encouraging through). left me wondering what my parents would say if they saw my report.

dunno why i'm like.. even updating this. its so dead. and besides I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING NOW. except for the fact that i fell asleep thrice (twice in the morning, once in the afternoon) today already. HAHA "self-discipline" eh! and my relatives are coming over later today. seems like my revisions' gone up in smoke today. w-w-o-w. i am so dead.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY REVISION. *stressed*

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

4:29 PM

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FREAK. i just realized the online progress report was long out. and i just went to see it -_- over a week after its been out. very alert eh don't you think.

anyway. i almost had a heart attack when i saw so many 3s in the report, thought scale ranged from 1 to 10 initially -_- then i realized the highest was 4. completely scared the daylights out of me? i knew i was bad but didn't know i was THAT bad. gahh. and the online report was utterly useless. i mean. i got lots of threes and a fair number of fours, but like that's gonna tell me where i stand? and the comments the teachers gave. LIKE THEY HELP. most don't even comment cause i don't think they even know me. erms. chan commented that i was an "independent learner with good self-discipline". ah. he hasn't seen me when my supposedly studying hours turned snoozing time. the only close to useful comment was surprisingly mien mien's! (not that it was particularly encouraging through). left me wondering what my parents would say if they saw my report.

dunno why i'm like.. even updating this. its so dead. and besides I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING NOW. except for the fact that i fell asleep thrice (twice in the morning, once in the afternoon) today already. HAHA "self-discipline" eh! and my relatives are coming over later today. seems like my revisions' gone up in smoke today. w-w-o-w. i am so dead.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY REVISION. *stressed*

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

4:29 PM

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FREAK. i just realized the online progress report was long out. and i just went to see it -_- over a week after its been out. very alert eh don't you think.

anyway. i almost had a heart attack when i saw so many 3s in the report, thought scale ranged from 1 to 10 initially -_- then i realized the highest was 4. completely scared the daylights out of me? i knew i was bad but didn't know i was THAT bad. gahh. and the online report was utterly useless. i mean. i got lots of threes and a fair number of fours, but like that's gonna tell me where i stand? and the comments the teachers gave. LIKE THEY HELP. most don't even comment cause i don't think they even know me. erms. chan commented that i was an "independent learner with good self-discipline". ah. he hasn't seen me when my supposedly studying hours turned snoozing time. the only close to useful comment was surprisingly mien mien's! (not that it was particularly encouraging through). left me wondering what my parents would say if they saw my report.

dunno why i'm like.. even updating this. its so dead. and besides I'M SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING NOW. except for the fact that i fell asleep thrice (twice in the morning, once in the afternoon) today already. HAHA "self-discipline" eh! and my relatives are coming over later today. seems like my revisions' gone up in smoke today. w-w-o-w. i am so dead.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY REVISION. *stressed*

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

4:29 PM

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argh i realize this blog has been rather stagnant for a RATHER long time. oh wells, had been very busy, what with my japanese prelims and stuff.. and i predict its gonna be even more stagnant for a longer time! (eoys. and jap o levels. GAH.)

im not really in the mood to write anything right now, just haha filling in the space while i wait for the download to finish -_- i'll save updates for later, when im in the mood :)

anw, really into kat tun right now, (or rather, since a long time ago). akame!! <3

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

2:17 PM

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happy birthday singapore! she's so old already.. 41 years old. and i thought she was still 36? (how many years ago was that :P?)

anyway, went kbox yesterday!! and damn it was bloody bloody bloody fun. haha in fact this was the best fun i had in a very very long time. wasn't my first time in kbox exactly, but.. yeah it was my first time REALLY singing and joining in haha. the last time i basically sat out. =D we sang for a full 5 hours hahahah and damn im still feeling excited! (: wanna do it again after the eoys! (or jap olevels -_-)

arghh im highh. i wanna SINGGG!!

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

2:03 PM

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sorry, still. but i'd glad its over (:

argh i feel so foolish and childish. easy for me to say now, but when you're in the thick of things, its just not that easy. and i have no idea why this keeps happening. i mean honestly i didn't mean for it to.. you know. but i guess ignoring is my only line of defence after everything else fails? i guess just to shield everyone away from the.. more vulnerable side of me. distance is the only thing i know how to put between us to keep myself "safe" i guess. i'm just not used to having the raw side of me exposed. and no, i don't usually am the first one to say i'm sorry. this, is the first time in fact if i'm not wrong.

i guess i need to change the way i er.. build my line of defences to prevent something similar from occurring later on.

bwarssh thanks clrs, and well to others who noticed something, its ok now (: pls pls forget this, its just some silly stupid idiotic episode k? everything's ok now. (:

now can we put everything behind us? i don't want to think about this anymore, not now not later not every. just forget this stupid thing.

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

8:20 PM

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PHYSICS TEST. BIO TEST. argh i'm so screwed. esp when im going for the strings concert THE NIGHT BEFORE BIO TEST. and when potato doesn't seem to teach anything. (or at least i never seem to understand or register anything he teaches in class.) arrggghhh why is there always so little time and so many things to do. bwargsshh.

handover's this thurs :( ARGH. why why why why it has to be at this time. when i seem to be growing increasingly fond of nyws. and when everything seems to be slipping through my fingers no matter how much i clutch at them. haha no, i don't mean im sad that we're handing over, just that handing over means that we're coming to an end of something. something NICE. ): (don't say its depressing clrs cause its the truth)

why is it, when everything seems to be falling into place finally, its time to let go.

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

1:43 PM

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my swansong, my final performance. gosh im sad.

i love youu nywushu!

glitters yesterday, and we put up a great show. (: no major glitches and everything ran smoothly. damn it was nice. but you know, i'm starting to feel so sad. this is the sec4s final performance in nywushu (unless there are still performances in the future unforeseen, which i highly doubt). i'm gonna miss it here. im not even gone and im already starting to miss nywushu.. its just suddenly so overwhelming.

i didn't think about it so much yesterday, but now that i think about it.. i'm starting to feel very very very sad. i guess i'm still joining wushu in jc, and i guess jy and kt and maybe sy? will be there too.. but. its just not the same. the o'level ppl - ruth, wx, gwen, qian, xy, xiaowen... and jnrs. clrs and sandra and deb and the rest of the ppl!

ahhh i don't wanna think about it now. not now. not just yet. yesterday was my final swansong, but its not time to say goodbye yet. its not time.

and so i left, the world tottering in its shoes too big for itself

2:02 PM

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